Since my journey of faith in illness started i have had good days and bad pain days and have had to deal with grieving losses. I never really thought of things like this having an effect on me till i got sick. Today i had to realize that me and scissors really don't get along anymore. This goes down in one of those grieving mooments since i love crafting. True i rely on stuff mostly without scissors but if i had to i could do it. well today i saw a tag pattern challenge and wanted to do it. It had a semi circle on it and i thought to myself. i can do this real quick and it will be ok. I started to cut it and for one it took much longer than expected and two my body was screaming so bad and made me cry because of the pain. So i have officially retired using scissors for a while.When these things happen it takes me a while to get use to it. Its hard sometimes to realize that at 24 i'm not able to do so many things that i could do when i first got married. Its good to grieve it allows you to process things and heal over those things we lose. My grandpa had a disability when i grew up and i lived with him. However i never really got the whole picture till i lived with it. Its a physical, and mental battle. Every day i pray to have the strength to endure the mental and physical challenges. However through this God has taught me alot and Its been a whirlwind. But as the bible says Jesus never promised us life would be easy only that he would be with us through it all. The last couple days have been high pain days. However i have been very cheerful and I'm glad God is with me through all this. I don't know if i could handle it otherwise. I am very blessed. Here are some pics of some non scissored cards lol. I'm not a great card artist but i do enjoy doing it. I have learned that chalk works well for me b/c its fast, easy and not too many fine motor skills involved. Have a blessed evening.
sending tons of hugs and spoons
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