keeping focused

There are so many things in our lives that can be distracting, work, family, pain, and just everyday thoughts and items. Its so easy to get distracted and off track. One verse that has been in my mind alot this week is

Phil 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

THe song slow fade by casting crowns describes how one just slowly drifts off the path. When we stop focusing on him it opens up a whole path that is just slowly getting away from where God wants us. I know when i'm in God's word and spending time with him life isn't easier but its much easier to deal with.  Sorry i just totally lost my train of thought. I will leave ya with this and then i'll come back and hopefully remember where my great thought was going lol.



Bring me back lyrics by Building 429
I remember when

Time was always spent
Dreaming of tomorrow
The way that it would be
But we all had our hopes
We all made our plans
somewhere along the way we lost our clarity
And nobody meant to change
We never thought we'd end up this far away
Bring me back to the innocence of You
And bring me back to the first love I ever knew
Back to the way when I was young
I'm tired of the mess that I've become
I want to see the world the way you do
So bring me back to You
Back to You
And as the days go by
I wish I could stop time
Because my little boy and girl
Their eyes are on the world
And what they've yet to learn
And what they've yet to see
Are the very things that jaded me
And left me empty
I never meant to change, no
I never meant to stray so far away
So bring me back to the innocence of You
And bring me back to the first love I ever knew
Back to the way when I was young
I'm tired of the mess that I've become
I want to see the world the way you do
Open my eyes, Lord, and help me to see
The plans that you have for me
And open my heart, fill it up, fill it up
And hold me, Lord, hold me
Bring me back to the innocence of You
And bring me back to the first love I ever knew
Back to the way when I was young
I'm tired of the mess that I've become
I want to see the world the way you do
So bring me back to You
Back to You
I remember when
Our time was always spent
Dreaming of tomorrow

working through the fog

I have heard this song a couple times this week and God has really spoken to me through it. So i thought i would share the lyrics.

If you want me to by Ginny Owens

The pathway is broken


And The signs are unclear

And I don't know the reason why You brought me here

But just because You love me the way that You do

I'm gonna walk through the valley

If You want me to

Chorus:

Cause I'm not who I was

When I took my first step

And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet

so if all of these trials bring me closer to you

Then I will walk through the fire

If You want me to


It may not be the way I would have chosen

When you lead me through a world that's not my home

But You never said it would be easy

You only said I'd never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me

And I'm all by myself

And I can't hear You answer my cries for help

I'll remember the suffering that Your love put You through

And I will walk through the darkness

If You want me to


Cuz when I cross over Jordan

Gonna sing, gonna shout,

Gonna look into Your eyes and see You never let me down

So take me on the pathway that leads me home to You

And I will walk though the valley

If You want me to


Yes, I will walk through the valley

If You want me to


This song makes me remember that all the pain all the fog are not in vain. That is the lesson i'm learning right now and its a hard one sometimes. This has been a couple weeks of high pain high emotions but also some really good times of blessings. I think sometimes I and everyone can get caught up in all the bad that its hard to see the good. However I'm clinging to those blessings. Like Wednesday was mine and my hubby's 3 1/2 year of marriage mark. Early on in the day we had a misunderstanding and i let the emotions get to me. However later that day I calmed down and prayed and let God bring the blessing. WHich just blessed my soul to no end. We couldn't get flowers so hubby brought me a few sheets of flower stickers. SO i got the clothespins and attached them to a stiraphoam cup. This may seem small but to me this made my day and made me feel like i was on the top of the world. So i have to remember that even though its painful its still worthwhile and not in vain. I'm starting to fight the fog as well again. The fog is anxiety, depression, seeming like i just can't think right. I have some prayer cards here by my computer station that i have been reading and rereading and GOd has really used those.  Sorry today's post is very rambly and may not seem very cohesive lol.
Here is one i will share with you today.  Help me Lord not to be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving , present my requests to you. And your peace, O God, which transends all understanding, will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus. (Philipians 4:6-7)

little moments of grieving

Since my journey of faith in illness started i have had good days and bad pain days and have had to deal with grieving losses. I never really thought of things like this having an effect on me till i got sick. Today i had to realize that me and scissors really don't get along anymore. This goes down in one of those grieving mooments since i love crafting. True i rely on stuff mostly without scissors but if i had to i could do it. well today i saw a tag pattern challenge and wanted to do it. It had a semi circle on it and i thought to myself. i can do this real quick and it will be ok. I started to cut it and for one it took much longer than expected and two my body was screaming so bad and made me cry because of the pain. So i have officially retired using scissors for a while.When these things happen it takes me a while to get use to it. Its hard sometimes to realize that at 24 i'm not able to do so many things that i could do when i first got married. Its good to grieve it allows you to process things and heal over those things we lose. My grandpa had a disability when i grew up and i lived with him. However i never really got the whole picture till i lived with it. Its a physical, and mental battle. Every day i pray to have the strength to endure the mental and physical challenges. However through this God has taught me alot and Its been a whirlwind. But as the bible says Jesus never promised us life would be easy only that he would be with us through it all.  The last couple days have been high pain days. However i have been very cheerful and I'm glad God is with me through all this. I don't know if i could handle it otherwise. I am very blessed. Here are some pics of some non scissored cards lol. I'm not a great card artist but i do enjoy doing it. I have learned that chalk works well for me b/c its fast, easy and not too many fine motor skills involved. Have a blessed evening.  

sending tons of hugs and spoons

inky

a little more than useless.

I have these litte scripture prayer cards that i got a year or two ago. I was reading one a few minutes ago and wanted to share it. HELP ME LORD, to finally comprehend what it means to consider it pure joy whenever i face trials of many kinds. Help me to know that the testing of my faith develops perserverance. Perserverance must finish its work in me so that i may be mature and complete lacking nothing.(james 1:2-4) Lord, You are not asking me to rejoice that i have lost someone or something precious but tYou know that in my loss i can rejoice in all I have to gain if I'm willing. Never must my suffering be in vain.
This reigns so true in me. The last few months i have really struggled with who i am during this time of illness. I also struggle with knowing he has a plan through this and that I am not useless. Now i know i'm not useless but its hard for me to see it sometimes because i think of all that i use to do and am not able to do now. Sometimes it just clouds my mind and I lose sight of God and his plan.  I let those negative thoughts in and they just creep in and settle and before long its not good in there. But day by Day God is showing me his plan. I know that i may not be able to dance anymore or even do laundry and household chores like i use to but God has a purpose and he's molding me into someone that meets that purpose. So your welcome along on this journey.  This will be kind of a mix of my thoughts prayers and journey and how card making fits in it all.
have a blessed day
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