Starting over

    Hey Peeps Going to start a new at this blog thing. Trying to keep up with it but no promises. I'm a busy lady. I will try to have life, cards, and book reviews and just some random stuff on here so stay tuned.

    What I have been up to lately: I have been busy with Shaelyn, the house, and church. I just bought three new bibles for my children in Action group kids that need them. I'm so excited to see their faces. I will post a review of the bibles on here soon.
  We had a good Mother's day. We surprised Isaac's mom by going to church with her and eating lunch with her. Then we went and saw my mom and hung out and ate dinner with them. Then off to my nana's where we hung out for a while.
  Happy Belated Mother's Day to all Mother's. I encourage you to keep on keeping on. I know it can be tough some days but God has given us a very important task to fulfill. To train up our kids in his way. This is a day to day work that we must be strong in. I was very fortunate to have a grandmother who took me under her wing and trained me up in the way I should go and for that I am very grateful. So to you christian mother's I thank you for what you do every day and encourage you to keep up with it.

Mother's day

Had a wonderful day with my family. Through all the pain and hard moments, God gifts us wonderful moments. Sorry fir not posting in forever. Wonderful sermon yesterday, then took Ike's mom to lunch. God has been working on me a lot lately and to have moments like yesterday are just a blessing. Just a quiet loving fun, sweet weekend with my family. My mother in law helped Shae make me a beautiful mother's day gift,  a hanging sign with a butterfly made with her painted feet. Touched. My heart so much.

sorry its been so long

Sorry its been so long. I've been sick/ in a rehab hospital for 2 months.

Update: I had a small simple outpatient procedure. It went well but my nerves went into ultra mode and never came out of it. I am now permanently in a wheelchair. I'm borrowing a friends power chair, so i can get around the house fairly well. I'm glad to be back home.

This is a quick post as i'm hurting this morning. I made lots of cards for the patients/ staff , i didn't have a camera though. They were chalk and sticker cards but still cute. I made two cards today b/c i was at my mom's house and got to see them enjoy cards and have to say that it was fun. One card i used two little mini cards on the front. I only had one open by i decorated the front of both of them and then made a background of stamps on the little flap of the top card and the inside of the regular card. One was a  ladybug and one was a little birdie. One card i made this week that was kind of cool was that of my husband's cousin. it may sound gruesome but it turned out way cuter than i thought it would be. My husband helped me with it. He told me that he would like a card with a swan (a sticker i have) being mauled by a lion (also a sticker i have). So the card has a lion with a swan neck in his mouth with some blood dripping a little. The lion is on grass that i drew. The swan is without its neck in the water with blood pools. I have bees and butterflies in the air and a couple other things.

hugs and have a good saturday
Inky aka Kristina

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those nights that get to you

Its weird how some events can get you down. Overall today was a good day. We were in the metroplex for a couple appointments hubby had and we stayed the weekend with some friends. I thoroughly enjoyed getting to spend time with them. It was very refreshing. Tonight the pain got to me though and it just makes me not understand and just brings me down sometimes. GOd has a plan in everything I know so i know what i'm going through is not in vain. I just have to remember that. My mind is all over the place tonight so i'll try to do a better post later.

You never know

So tonight is one of those sleepless nights. I am hurting so bad and fighting the tears. Its funny how a not so bad pain day can turn into a really painful night.  I guess it just exemplifies that there aren't any guaranties in life. You can plan and have things to where you think they will turn out how you want them to and they might or probably will. Sometimes these things we can easily see how our plan wasn't as great as what God had in plan for us. I have had several of those throughout my life and its good to be able to look back and see how God has worked in our lives. I can remember one really hard time in my life that actually shaped who i am today. Even though it still seems harsh and hard to accept that thats how it had to happen. Though i hated that it happened. If it were not for that event i would not have learned who i was, spread my wings a bit and learn a few important lessons from God that he used to shape me to who i am. However, there are sometimes we can't see, and may never be able to see how God is using it in his plan. These are the really hard parts of life. Although we can't see what God is doing in these hard times we must remember God is with us through out it all and wants to comfort us and  may teach us, correct us or use that situation in a way we can't imagine. I don't know why things happen the way they do, why our plans and our strongest wills are not realized sometimes but I am thankful that God is here with us throughout it.  The lady at the lady's get together last night brought up a good verse and it with a few others i thought fitting.
habakuk 3:17-19
17 Although the fig tree shall not blossom , neither shall fruit be in the vines;the labour of the olive shall fail , and the fields shall yield no meat; the flock shall be cut off from the fold, and there shall be no herd in the stalls: 18 Yet I will rejoice in the LORD, I will joy in theGod of my salvation. 19 The LORD God is my strength, and he will make my feet like hinds' feet, and he will make me to walk upon mine high places. To the chief singer on my stringed instruments.

Romans 8:38-39

38 For I am persuaded , that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, northings present , nor things to come , 39 Nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall beable to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.

2 Corinthians 4:16-18

For which cause we faint not; but though our outward man perish , yet the inward man is renewed day by day.   For our light affliction, which is but for a moment, worketh for us a far more exceeding and eternal weight of glory;   While we look not at the things which are seen , but at the things which are not seen : for the things which are seen are temporal; but the things which are not seen are eternal.

Ephesians 3:17-21

That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love,   May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height;   And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God.   Now unto him that is able to do exceeding abundantly above all that we ask or think , according to the power that worketh in us,   Unto him be glory in the church by Christ Jesus throughout all ages, world without end. Amen

keeping focused

There are so many things in our lives that can be distracting, work, family, pain, and just everyday thoughts and items. Its so easy to get distracted and off track. One verse that has been in my mind alot this week is

Phil 4:8 Finally, brethren, whatsoever things are true, whatsoever things are honest, whatsoever things are just, whatsoever things are pure, whatsoever things are lovely, whatsoever things are of good report; if there be any virtue, and if there be any praise, think on these things.

THe song slow fade by casting crowns describes how one just slowly drifts off the path. When we stop focusing on him it opens up a whole path that is just slowly getting away from where God wants us. I know when i'm in God's word and spending time with him life isn't easier but its much easier to deal with.  Sorry i just totally lost my train of thought. I will leave ya with this and then i'll come back and hopefully remember where my great thought was going lol.



Bring me back lyrics by Building 429
I remember when

Time was always spent
Dreaming of tomorrow
The way that it would be
But we all had our hopes
We all made our plans
somewhere along the way we lost our clarity
And nobody meant to change
We never thought we'd end up this far away
Bring me back to the innocence of You
And bring me back to the first love I ever knew
Back to the way when I was young
I'm tired of the mess that I've become
I want to see the world the way you do
So bring me back to You
Back to You
And as the days go by
I wish I could stop time
Because my little boy and girl
Their eyes are on the world
And what they've yet to learn
And what they've yet to see
Are the very things that jaded me
And left me empty
I never meant to change, no
I never meant to stray so far away
So bring me back to the innocence of You
And bring me back to the first love I ever knew
Back to the way when I was young
I'm tired of the mess that I've become
I want to see the world the way you do
Open my eyes, Lord, and help me to see
The plans that you have for me
And open my heart, fill it up, fill it up
And hold me, Lord, hold me
Bring me back to the innocence of You
And bring me back to the first love I ever knew
Back to the way when I was young
I'm tired of the mess that I've become
I want to see the world the way you do
So bring me back to You
Back to You
I remember when
Our time was always spent
Dreaming of tomorrow

working through the fog

I have heard this song a couple times this week and God has really spoken to me through it. So i thought i would share the lyrics.

If you want me to by Ginny Owens

The pathway is broken


And The signs are unclear

And I don't know the reason why You brought me here

But just because You love me the way that You do

I'm gonna walk through the valley

If You want me to

Chorus:

Cause I'm not who I was

When I took my first step

And I'm clinging to the promise You're not through with me yet

so if all of these trials bring me closer to you

Then I will walk through the fire

If You want me to


It may not be the way I would have chosen

When you lead me through a world that's not my home

But You never said it would be easy

You only said I'd never go alone

So when the whole world turns against me

And I'm all by myself

And I can't hear You answer my cries for help

I'll remember the suffering that Your love put You through

And I will walk through the darkness

If You want me to


Cuz when I cross over Jordan

Gonna sing, gonna shout,

Gonna look into Your eyes and see You never let me down

So take me on the pathway that leads me home to You

And I will walk though the valley

If You want me to


Yes, I will walk through the valley

If You want me to


This song makes me remember that all the pain all the fog are not in vain. That is the lesson i'm learning right now and its a hard one sometimes. This has been a couple weeks of high pain high emotions but also some really good times of blessings. I think sometimes I and everyone can get caught up in all the bad that its hard to see the good. However I'm clinging to those blessings. Like Wednesday was mine and my hubby's 3 1/2 year of marriage mark. Early on in the day we had a misunderstanding and i let the emotions get to me. However later that day I calmed down and prayed and let God bring the blessing. WHich just blessed my soul to no end. We couldn't get flowers so hubby brought me a few sheets of flower stickers. SO i got the clothespins and attached them to a stiraphoam cup. This may seem small but to me this made my day and made me feel like i was on the top of the world. So i have to remember that even though its painful its still worthwhile and not in vain. I'm starting to fight the fog as well again. The fog is anxiety, depression, seeming like i just can't think right. I have some prayer cards here by my computer station that i have been reading and rereading and GOd has really used those.  Sorry today's post is very rambly and may not seem very cohesive lol.
Here is one i will share with you today.  Help me Lord not to be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving , present my requests to you. And your peace, O God, which transends all understanding, will guard my heart and my mind in Christ Jesus. (Philipians 4:6-7)

little moments of grieving

Since my journey of faith in illness started i have had good days and bad pain days and have had to deal with grieving losses. I never really thought of things like this having an effect on me till i got sick. Today i had to realize that me and scissors really don't get along anymore. This goes down in one of those grieving mooments since i love crafting. True i rely on stuff mostly without scissors but if i had to i could do it. well today i saw a tag pattern challenge and wanted to do it. It had a semi circle on it and i thought to myself. i can do this real quick and it will be ok. I started to cut it and for one it took much longer than expected and two my body was screaming so bad and made me cry because of the pain. So i have officially retired using scissors for a while.When these things happen it takes me a while to get use to it. Its hard sometimes to realize that at 24 i'm not able to do so many things that i could do when i first got married. Its good to grieve it allows you to process things and heal over those things we lose. My grandpa had a disability when i grew up and i lived with him. However i never really got the whole picture till i lived with it. Its a physical, and mental battle. Every day i pray to have the strength to endure the mental and physical challenges. However through this God has taught me alot and Its been a whirlwind. But as the bible says Jesus never promised us life would be easy only that he would be with us through it all.  The last couple days have been high pain days. However i have been very cheerful and I'm glad God is with me through all this. I don't know if i could handle it otherwise. I am very blessed. Here are some pics of some non scissored cards lol. I'm not a great card artist but i do enjoy doing it. I have learned that chalk works well for me b/c its fast, easy and not too many fine motor skills involved. Have a blessed evening.  

sending tons of hugs and spoons

inky

a little more than useless.

I have these litte scripture prayer cards that i got a year or two ago. I was reading one a few minutes ago and wanted to share it. HELP ME LORD, to finally comprehend what it means to consider it pure joy whenever i face trials of many kinds. Help me to know that the testing of my faith develops perserverance. Perserverance must finish its work in me so that i may be mature and complete lacking nothing.(james 1:2-4) Lord, You are not asking me to rejoice that i have lost someone or something precious but tYou know that in my loss i can rejoice in all I have to gain if I'm willing. Never must my suffering be in vain.
This reigns so true in me. The last few months i have really struggled with who i am during this time of illness. I also struggle with knowing he has a plan through this and that I am not useless. Now i know i'm not useless but its hard for me to see it sometimes because i think of all that i use to do and am not able to do now. Sometimes it just clouds my mind and I lose sight of God and his plan.  I let those negative thoughts in and they just creep in and settle and before long its not good in there. But day by Day God is showing me his plan. I know that i may not be able to dance anymore or even do laundry and household chores like i use to but God has a purpose and he's molding me into someone that meets that purpose. So your welcome along on this journey.  This will be kind of a mix of my thoughts prayers and journey and how card making fits in it all.
have a blessed day
inky